January 2011
December 2010
It’s always him I’m coming home to on new years. Not this time. Not this year. No more him, no more.
“Love takes off the masks we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live...”
– James Baldwin (via kari-shma)
Anonymous asked: Will u be in jkt fow new years eve?
Anonymous asked: RIP ur grandma :(
Anonymous asked: when will u go back to singapore?
Anonymous asked: how tall are u?
Anonymous asked: when will u go back to singapore?
Anonymous asked: what if sheen want to go back together, who would u choose? sheen or seba?
Anonymous asked: hows u and seba?
Anonymous asked: where will u be celebrate new year?
R.I.P TUO
Fuck 2010 very much. So my grandma just passed away too. Seriously. I’ve seen two of my family members passed away right before my eyes now, on the same year. Fuck 2010, the worst year of my fucking life, too much tears, too much.
“When I think back on those days, I feel a great sadness. My life has gone by...”
– The House of the Spirits, Isabel Allende (via expose)
When you get a paper cut, the action of the paper cutting you didn’t hurt. What hurts is the course that follows, the healing part. The part when the skin is torn open, when the wound is exposed. That hurts. The way my heart breaks is like that. Like a paper cut.
You’ll never know the capacity of one’s heart, even your own. One small cut, one small thing can mean so much, can...
kissanthopy:
maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it’s the only person who will ever receive all of you. after that, you learn better. but, the most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved - a piece no future lover could ever get, no matter what. that piece holds innocence, the belief that love really can last...
thisismassive asked: nash, i miss u both, gorgeous as always. hows HK?
Anonymous asked: where are you now? Singapore?
Anonymous asked: Who do you write for?
Anonymous asked: Ti'll when will ya be stayin in hong kong?
“The heart dies a slow death, shedding each hope like leaves… Until one day there...”
– Sayuri, “Memiors of a Geisha” (via agapeeternal)
“Your heart just breaks, that’s all. But you can’t judge, or point fingers. You...”
– Audrey Hepburn | Submitted by: bornonthe17th (via quote-book)
Trust, deceived
Back at home again. Back at this again. I hate it when I’m not distracted, you know? I don’t know where is the limit for my brain to wonder. Besides, when I’m about to sleep like this, what else can distract me? What else can I think about? I wish I could just fall asleep rather than trying to sleep and let this emotions drown me to sleep. This sucks, what’s worse is the...
“You can transmute love, muddle it, ignore it…but you can never pull it out of...”
– E. M. Forster (via reluctantbuddha) (via quote-book)
This is why I held back, cause I didn’t want to let the anger ruin things. But what can you do when someone else ruined it for you? Fight back? What’s the point? So I back down and swallow it in. I tried, I swear I did.
Look at what your anger is turning you into. A monster, intentionally showing me, to hurt me. And I thank you, cause I wouldn’t have any regrets on making this...
Paradox
I don’t understand how two people can go on living constantly letting one another down, fucking each other up, yet they can’t bring themselves to hate. The more they’re hurt, the more they love, the more they need each other.
Wouldn’t live be much simpler if their sight, their name, their smell doesn’t make you long for them? Wouldn’t live be much simpler if...
Still can't let go
My heart was as gloomy as the dark sky I was looking at from my window seat. And as the city lights starts to emerge from it, my heart didn’t follow. It went darker, heavier. This is where I belong now, this is what I should get used to call home now. But I don’t want to absorb it, I’m getting out of here, no matter what. I wana go back home, where I used to be.
4 more days...
“Whenever you leave something you loved so much, that meant the entire world to...”
– Unknown (via quoteworld)
thisismassive asked: nash, i miss u both, gorgeous as always. hows HK?
Oh Santa - Mariah Carey
I’m going Singaporean style with my slippers on this Christmas eve and “winter” night. My boots are killing me pft. Last Christmas… I remember what I got. This Christmas, it’s all different. Last year felt like ages ago cause everything is so different now. I don’t really like changes after all, do I?
Anonymous asked: where are you now? Singapore?
HK
I can’t say my heart didn’t drop this morning when I woke up to that smell. Then I remember last night, every time I walk pass Sasa, I’d spray that perfume on me, on my knit sweater I sleep with. Sniff in, my face on your neck; felt like it. I’m breathing you in. I know I shouldn’t have. But I can’t resist. Oh well, I’m waiting for Farah till she’s...
